Through the many veils of psycho-spiritual unfolding so many sleights-of-hand, hallucinations, and themes of change appear and disappear or reappear, you can be forgiven (you already are!) for feeling confused. Perhaps a summary looks something like this: In the beginning you want to change. You change through accepting yourself just as you are. Then you experience transformation. In the deeper existence that follows you wish to practice only love, authenticity, and compassion. Then you feel the last sand grains passing through the hour-glass as even the transformed state is about to be offered up. Letting go of all your certainties, of your ideals, and your many refined fantasies of what is really spiritual, you enter the spiritual discipline of sadhana, stripped bare of all expectations and assumptions and, now you cannot even think of change or transformation, these are exactly what occurs. Through a life of consistent burdenlessness, experience renounced for reality's embrace, you ceaselessly change while in no way desiring anything to be different until you are washed, purified, and annihilated in the flow, merged and assimilated in the torrent.

In Sacred Attention Therapy, only in the fourth state of Mahanamen can you say finally with conviction: God is, when I am not. Awakening is complete; you are no more.

Now the wonder of this—or perhaps we should say one of the wonders for there are many—is that to resort to a description in words you would think this happens sequentially. How can we say it, sing it, or dance it for we are here, already realized, blossomed, and grown.

Sometimes metaphors simply fail us, similes don't measure up, descriptions don't apply to the indescribable... all we are left with is wonder and the opportunity to sit still and quiet and merge into the formless state of great beingness, before and beyond thought and feeling and experience and anything was here, as we lose ourselves in the distraction of the great void, to the contentment of the universal womb, and enter the profound embrace of total love.